Something in us will race to get done
So that the better activity can be won
Yet in the rushing and in the “just get it done’
We shame ourselves if it takes too long…
We talk to ourselves critically assuming we could do this faster better more efficiently if we knew more
And then the task becomes laborious and even painful
Because the promised activity “later when you’re done” is taunted as the thing that’s more fulling and what we ought to be focused on.
But what if in the midst of the laborious task,
We could express gratitude we’re attending to matters at hand?
What if in the rush to get things done
We could cherish all that we’ve accomplished thus far?
And what if in the hurried rush beating ourselves up
We slow down and notice that the best activity of all is right now how we cradle and support and nurture and grow and expand….our thought?
It’s how we handle the thoughts handling us
Its how we bring our light to the what’s right in front of us
It’s how we speak gently and compassionately with our falling footsteps
It’s how we forgive ourselves when we get back up and strive again to the right now task accomplish.
It’s how we refuse to be mechanical anymore and constantly forcing rushing and demanding aggressively…
And what if in that tender shift we see
It’s possible to adore loving our precious me
Not a self-absorbed love
Not an obsession with ourselves
But a thank you to our heart
We are being responsible.
Can we do that?
Can we shift for the kinder?
Can we aim for what will be tender and true each thought by thought process?
Then perhaps no task may seem too hard or laborious
Maybe then too the right now thoughtscape can become the cherished destination to land our footsteps.
Maybe just maybe the tedious work is exactly what needs our attention.
Maybe just maybe the devotion is exactly what will grow our character.
May this moment, this task, this very second’s focus find you
Being grateful you have in front of you work to do.
Being gentle and loving and excited to strive anew…
And as you accomplish each activity, may you not rush through.
For I have found in several years of this inner wrestling
Rushing postpones embracing the right now we can be living.
Hurrying up and beating ourselves up inwardly for not going faster
Doesn’t make the task at hand any more doable or easier.
What’s the benefit of a postponed reward
If in the doing we condemn our very innocent efforts at our endeavors?
May we do better standing up to that inner condemner.
For it’s possible to prove that those beliefs hold no power.
When I strive to refute it’s blarings.
I find that nothing in this now has been or ever is lacking.
For as we each are a reflection of Love
We can in this moment, in this tedious task, glow and shine on.
May we befriend the now…yes….but even more
May we bestie our intentions and cherish every sweet effort.
With much love and hope… Tre ~
