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A note I write to myself on the plane the other day…an apology to me

Forgive me Tre,
for thinking something had to be done
And in just that way
that timing and
that shape and form
How completely wrong.

Forgive me Tre,

for thinking
you moved too slow and

couldn’t get it together

to handle the minutiae of life
that caused more fear than you anticipated so…

Forgive me Tre,

for bashing you again and again
when gentle did you need

and tenderness as a forever friend

Forgive me luv bug
for ever doubting what you see

or for thinking
I can’t,
no not now,
how would that be possible?
not me…

Forgive me luvbug
for ever haulting the pull to say yes

to others
when the joy of giddyness of meeting them

felt a distraction to what must get done

Forgive me…sweetest heart
for thinking anything was ever too hard
or impossible unless
I pace at full throttle no holds barred

Forgive me also

for assuming
I was running out of time
I thought I’d would be finished in three years and here we are at a few shy of 5…

For something happened on the way

to get that thing done that way that moment just so

You helped me learn how be true to you

and you showed me

that’s the only way to go

You reminded me
“Hey hush now
We gotta listen within!!
For there’s where we will hear our inner nudge

and SHE is the one–not you– who’s steering ”

Sooo…

I promise to gently hold your heart when you dream bigger than you can step into tomorrow or as quick as 1, 2, 3…

I promise to giggle when you say “it’s gotta be done” and I promise to remind you that stuff that big always takes more than one…

I absolutely have your back when you get afraid again… Unmapped waters are daunting surely but Columbus sailed anyway

And I assure you from the depths of my heart… No matter how nervous or alone you may feel we know now better God’s got our heart.

Here’s to keeping on luvbug…

and staying true to you
Lots of directions pull and

you’re heeding the ones that keep you true

Biggest deepest respect and luvhugs,

me

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