Thought by thought . . .

Woke to this solid rain this morning…the kind that occupies all volume of space between one coast to another blocking any view of ought else cept the palms just outside the window. The sweet, humid, balmy smell reminds me of childhood play and stealing moments unannounced outside to dance in the warm showers, a form of escape I adored.

I thought about jumping out into the downpour today for a similar escape. Something’s been heavy on my heart of late and at times the beckoning “come, leap, run” seems a temporary way to solve any burden.

But I know better. The temporary glee of any conscious escape definitely soothes for the moment, but turn around and there’s your dilemma facing you straight up, snickering a bit or even sayin’ ‘hey what’s up…still here, you haven’t dealt with me yet.’

I don’t like that kind of reminder….on any level…the knowing I haven’t dealt with something yet.

What’s comical to me thus far is that facing down concerns even weighs at all anymore as a burden. It shouldn’t. I mean, yes, sometimes decisions are difficult, but when you’re making any decision and you’re coming from a place of solid conviction in the awareness of the all presence, power, and intelligence of Mind ,and you trust your thought and life to this governance, well, no decision should loom so heavily.

So I did as I do in the mornings….I scooped up myself to a place of comfort and began to meditate…..what I do in the mornings to still my thoughts…and what I do throughout the day to squelch the fears.

I got very very still in my thoughts—where is the only huggabaloo anyway ever. And once I felt really calm, I began to embrace with great certainty  of the presence, power, and operating intelligence of this divine Principle and my inseparability from it.

I mentally argued and defended that this Principle is the foundation of all being, the cause of all reality, the sustainer of all truth….And because of this, my true essence, and the true essence of each one of us, is to reflect the nature of this Principle. I am, we each are, an idea of the divine Mind that as an idea of this being, I am – as is the true nature of all mankind– this moment an effect of this Principle, never separated, never cut off, never disassociated. Thus the thoughts that are real about my identity are those that support and sustain and reflect the nature of Principle. And thus I do not have to buy into the mental suggestions assuming separation from this Principle – of any kind, and on any level.  I am never susceptible to believe for a moment that I am cut off from good, venturing alone, without support or backing, or whatever the separated feelings would suggest. It is unfathomable to think that there can ever be a moment when I or anyone can fall out of the care, comfort, sustaining love of the divine. This is an assured truth for me and all this moment and always….

I worked this way for a while. As I did a lot of suggestions came to mind, the very ones I’m striving to root out and destroy…..thoughts that I am alone in my work, that I am not feeling reciprocity between certain individuals, just a bunch of muck that would want to convince me of martyrdom or victimization. And such for me or for anyone is sooooo not ever true.

Yes, it would seem a lot of tough stuff happens. But at every moment, if I am, we are each and all checking our thoughts, acting from our highest sense of right, and moving forward as best as we are able, the immediate and ongoing result will be to offer some kind of learning, some kind of growth, some kind of turning point.

And even if our actions have to insist upon ‘tough love’ for a time, defending what is principled and right, to your highest sense, will inevitably have some kind of good result and far be it from me to outline any of that.

I felt really free after praying this way….free of a lot of pressure that built up over the past week. I had resolved a few things I wasn’t clear about and I was ready to face what good the day would bring….and whatever else ? armed as I was to move forward feeling peace and living love to the best of my knowing now.

What kinds of experiences have you had with meditation and shutting out the negative thoughts?

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Peace to you on your tender — thought by thought — journey.

(fyi, if you are new to reading this blog, the I resource I use to comprehend practical spirituality is a work called Science and Health by Mary Baker Eddy. The truths I express above I’ve learned in studying the ideas therein).