Sometimes the best we can do is distance ourselves.
But we know why.
Our motive isn’t to avoid.
It’s to tend to. and nurture. and grow. and mommy. ourselves.
Maybe we’ve felt broken.
Maybe we’ve felt ostracized.
Maybe we’ve felt abandonned or neglected.
Maybe we’ve felt rejected.
In my journey I’ve surely felt all of those.
And at times the best I’ve known how is to distance myself and to separate.
But.
Not from a motive of hurting someone.
Rather, from a moment of healing. my. heart.
Because in my sense of truth, my connection — our connection — with the source of my life– is unbreakable, unseverable, unswerving, constant.
Always perpetual.
Always nurturing, holding, grounding, basing, supporting, sustaining, tending to, growing us, mommying me, husbanding me, daddying me, sistering me, brothering me :), friending me….
This source…this sense of Love is constant…the very essence of my thought and yours and it is speaking 24/7….showing, guiding, helping, supporting, nurturing….
The more I atone with this inner rudder, the more I feel whole, complete, now.
Not past.
Not victim.
Not anything tainted.
Not anything used, rejected, unloved, mistreated, blah dee blah.
But.
Of late?
I’m so getting that this work of at-one-ing is constant. And it doesn’t have to allow us to stand apart or separate from the who we are striving to become, live, be.
The heavies and pulls of dark will say “you’re not ready.”
Yet the butterfly within is pulling “c’mon c’mon let’s go BE.”
I used to think I had to full on Butterfly before I could re connect with those with whom I’ve shared some toughies with.
Now, I’m seeing, it’s possible to do both…Be the butterfly (shedding cocoon of past) while reconnecting with those with whom the toughest moments of our lives have been with.
Because here’s another nugget I’m learning: we dont carry with us the hurt, not really. It only tries to cloak us in a dark space at times.
We carry with us deep desire. To love. To forgive. To LIVE. To be whole, unbroken, untainted, unharmed.
As we dive into that desire, and so embrace anyone in their right now yearning too, because I promise you, they’re feeling that butterfly within as well, think of the possibilities…
Not two hurt hearts trying to reconnect.
But two (or more) 🙂 childlike innocent butterfly adventurers yearning to play.
And I rather joy over that possibility…..
So I know this one’s a deeper post….
But I’m soo aware how much more joy and life and wonder and glee can be ours as we let ourselves be that butterfly now….and see all others in that light too.
Just think.
The same yearning you’re striving for, the same desire to shed the past and live the right now wholeness….that’s not exclusively yours or mine.
It’s our natural inclination….
And the very next person you embrace today in your thought? They’re yearning for it too.
So how bout it?
Who’s gonna butterfly with me? 🙂