I gave some flowers to a friend
who then texted she thought they looked dead
she threw them away
and for a moment I was hurt
but then I realized
she must be dealing with an awful lot
to launch out at me and be hateful on a text
and I remember putting the phone down
and made a choice to hug my heart
and overcome the total pull to feel hurt or react
I closed my eyes
I took a deep breath
and I defended Divine Love is ever present
because you see
I loved what those flowers had looked like to me
I had thought about purchasing some for myself
but I actually don’t remember when last I did just that
I tend to get excited about giving lovelies to others who may seem to need a smile
and at the time this woman’s pet had just passed and she hadn’t smiled in a long while
and I thought the image of life and color would make her fee joy again
so I made a choice
when I read the text
NOT to take it personally
as a verbal attack
and to get all mad and huff puff
and to feel hurt?
Well sure I was tempted
to feel all of that stuff…
But I seek a deeper state of being…
And on any given day maybe I get it 30% right or so it would seem…
But I seek that
unaffected
undisturbed and
unmoved state of Love
that loves because it’s just what it must …
It does what Love does
And looking back there’s so much other I could’ve done to bless more…right?
I could’ve planted flowers and let something bloom in the spring to smile upon…(but I don’t have a green thumb) ?
I could’ve written a card which I’m sure I did…
I could’ve done a lot of other things which maybe would’ve had more meaning back then…
Maybe flowers remind her of a boyfriend who left
Maybe flowers for her were always given with surface joy and static
Maybe she loathes flowers and I didn’t know
Whatever the reason the flowers made her sad
I am not nor is my motive…
Friend reading this is true:
Sometimes people lash out at you…
When if they’re moved to that intense anger and yelling it is NEVER you
It’s whatever they never resolved within themselves
But golly it would seem sometimes we go from accusing to the the next accusing
Someone may read this and say block that friend
Someone else may read this and agree giving flowers was insensitive
We each have so many different views and perspectives
But if we try to dig deeper than what’s given we may find commonality and goodness in the motive
So what am I saying on this poem today as we celebrate Martin Luther and all that he lived…
I’m saying that when your motive is to Love and be Love
and what you do or how you are
is not received in fact it’s condemned
try to trust in your sweet little heart
that you acted how you were lead
and don’t let another reaction
harm you for a moment
In fact BE LOVE bigger and beam more brightly instead 🙂
My heart to yours ????
*what I do now whenever I see someone hurting instead of flowers I pray that they’re able to feel comforted somehow
Divine alive is always always at hand and everyone can feel its constancy no matter how empty how apathetic how sad…
If you’re feeling empty or sad or invisible on any level you’re welcome to contact me and I can share more on what helps me fill that.
Loved and adored are we all
no matter what we strive to be each day
Love hugs the real in us all….