She knew his character had not ever companioned hers
Nor had it supported nurtured nor respected her must pursue endeavors…
She’d done the inner work that understood letting go was a way of facing the going toward…
All the true good she yearned to pursue each moment…
So why then was the ache so strong when she saw his choice to be with another?
Why was there this ill feeling and nautiousness…
Had she betrayed herself and what she really wanted?
She asked me again and again through the tears…
And said that oh so familiar thing we have all said or heard:
“But I’m over him…
So why does it hurt so much?”
And at that moment through the phone did I so wanna leap so I could hold her and give her a forever hug….
I prayed as I listened because that is my work…
To defend as I listen and advocate for someone’s spiritual truth….
And when she paused after some timeI opened my heart up to know best how to respond….
And I said what I’ve found true again and again…
Any slightest reminder of an unexpected outcome –especially with someone we outpoured our love and years with…reminds us of the sting of rejection…
And even when the shift was vital for our thriving…
Maybe we had to leave a job where the boss did nothing but harass us…
Maybe we had to send away an abuser who was constantly verbally shaming us…
Maybe we had to let go what no longer (and never) supported us…
Maybe we had to walk on and leave that scene of friends or loved ones who never understood us…
Whatever the shift… whatever the change….
Any reminder can make us feel that pain belief of rejection…
But with this luv who was calling me
And with myself again and again year after year
I said what I do believe is so true
We feel an ache because we are all still learning that we are as we are already adored beloved and approved….
We only believe such love comes from things…
Whether a relationship status
A job
A lease
A portfolio balance
Or a house’s deed
We have been trained over and over again to believe that our “status” is what defines whether we are loved and productive and doing life right on that scale of worth and belonging and fulfillment…
Yet as we learn about our always oneness with divine Love…
This means every moment we have our completeness…
Our approval…
Our worth…
Our validity…
Our significance…
And life choices become a way to EXUDE this!!!
And we can see another as their already complete
And we can LOVE more bc we are NOT seeking to “get”…
And we can forgive ourselves tha ever lived from a sense of lack….
And believed the partner the ringthe job or the deed meant “now I’m on track….”
So I did the best as I was able to with this dear one calling…
And I assured her she was complete now and could resist this ache and belief of empty and the void it creates of false longing…
And she listened and I know she heard this truth:
We are and always have been adored and approved…
And that Love that bases our being and won’t ever let us go
Is not conditional
And can’t ever reject abandon or oust or leave or go…
It’s an always forever bond of spiritual substance
And it’s ours to LIVE thought by thought and this doing and being completes us…
So no “thing” needs be pursued
But rather every endeavor can become our outpouring of wholeness as wo/manhood…
#spontaneous_poeming
#myheart2yours
#leftthumb
#rightpointer
#oneness
#completeness
#fulfilment
#love
#healrejection
#belovebigger
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