Pausing routines…shedding the seem

We rise
We pray
We have hope for another day
We ponder
We think
We plan ways to actualize a dream

We advocate
We defend
We insist Love is at the helm

We pause from this knowing
To begin some actual doing
And within a few minutes more
We find ourselves sorting and pitching.

This seems always the way
Get rid of the past today
And for me that always finds me
Packing up and donating
Stuff that no longer defines me…

I’ve become great actually
At tossing whatever I feel doesn’t reflect my now me
But I think also it’s true
That because I’m good at sifting and pitching it’s what I tend to do
When I’m actually sculpting the next plan
To exude the all I seek to give and be the who I am…

So, all the while sorting
I am thought by thought advocating
That no step has been wrong in how I’ve chose to sing my song

Yet no one really sees me
Chiseling thought and sculpting my now reality
And I’ve resolved this is true
Thought work is always between divine Love and me or you…

So I continue sorting while praying:
That I am –and all are– an infinite idea
Not bound by the past or married to a mortal history identity
But rather that each one of us is like a bird
Able to soar from each branch for sure

And I defend this because doing so gives me strength
To take on whatever feels that day that I must

And no day finds me just going along
But rather each day finds me fighting down fear that much more…

What fear you ask?

Well that of alone
And that of feeling I can’t sing my song
Or that of feeling time has been lost
Pursuing something one way that I thought it had to be done
Or fear of never enjoying reciprocated love
Or fear I’ll never experience actual motherhood
Or fear that this far I’ve made mistakes
And fear of feeling forever invisibles ache

But in the sorting and pitching of things
Do I hear an angel message
“I love you Tre”

And it holds me like a hug so close
And reminds me try as it might,
fear will not be allowed to bag up my heart and toss it…

And yet as I sort and pitch the things I no longer wish to have
Right there in my hands do I see
All the evidence of love lived

And it’s not mine to say that something didn’t work
For along the way to one goal there did another appear:)

And this shows me again and again
Fear will always insist we are a mess
And this is such a erroneous belief
And as I face this lie down
There’s no longer a need for seem

So if you are wondering why this poem now
I wanna hug everyone who is sifting their how
And offer that just when you feel done with stuff
Or when you feel done with a going nowhere project
Or when you feel done with a place
Or when you feel done with her or him

Hug your heart surely and realize
“I am done” is fear’s song
And that no genuine effort to love or grow has EVER been wrong

And take that “I’m done” feeling for today
And see if behind it you can hear Love’s way

For Love will never leave us alone
And Love doesn’t size up how much we think we have grown
And Love isn’t scolding us or saying you’re too slow
And Love will never abandon us or act as if we don’t belong
And Love will never accuse Us of not fitting In
And Love will always be there advocating with us like a best friend

So I remind myself this again and again
And hug my heart surely in order to allow
Some next steps that I must take
And while thinking up all this
I remind myself I am not a mistake

And no step taken is ever wrong
When taking it lets us squelch fear’s accusation we are wrong

And I pause and open my eyes to continue
The sifting and sorting and pitching that I do
But this moment something has shifted in me
Reminding “you are letting go of things but can never let go the who you are as Tre”

So friend wherever this finds you
Whatever is insisting you are doing
Before you take drastic measures to throw it all out
Hug that heart of yours again and again and insist that the good you’ve lived has not been in vain
And the love you’ve outpoured has been felt
And the courage you’ve exuded has brought you this far

And defend with me again and again
There is nothing to pitch in Love and how we choose to be living it….

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if you or someone you know is facing a transition and the practicals need a massive overhaul or shifting
I welcome working with you
And helping you tune your thought into how Love is steering you so that you can know and see this moment now that the good of your life cannot be discarded somehow and that if the intended outcome has not occurred that there is nothing wrong with who you are or how you are living your unique song for sure

We are each in a journey to prove we are one with Love and will never be allowed to separate from that liberating fact … In Love we are living and everything is about living and proving that!:)