For the last ThinkHer tool #30,
I’ll share a bit about an internal dialogue I often wrestle with.
Hint: these ThinHer tools I’ve shared?
They’ve been written from my heart to yours…as I’ve needed them to lean on and take a step.
Daily, as I’ve prayed for courage to overcome whatever fear tried to present, I have heard each little one as a how to press on and take that very step….
Perhaps I can assemble them into a little booklet… ahhh but that will be the next little mountain to trek…
Here’s to all the ways your beautiful now is being creating doing as a ThinkHer 🙂
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What if likes to share a lot of moments with me
She’s is the constant thought friend who never wants to leave
She clings to my hand…
As we take a walk…
and she wants to continue dialoging all day long.
And we’ve shared seasons together
which have sometimes turn into years…
And that’s easy to do as I’m often inspired by her and provide a 24/7 listening ear.
She sees possibilities and likes to live in no limits…
She has the deepest of hopes and no fears or regrets…
Yet she doesn’t tend to put her foot on the ground…
She’s too busy fluttering about seeing potential all day long.
And she often perches herself in the trees gazing East or West…
For out there someday is what she pines for best.
She means well
and has a heart of gold
but she seldom discusses the oober basic and oh so very simple …(what’s doable and what’s practical) …
But ohhh she doesn’t want to be left alone …
and when I pause from her and let her know
I just must share equal time with “what is”
ohhh this just frustrates her so…
Recently…
I took them both for a walk and they weren’t really wanting to share mutual time with me at all…
It was if they were jealous…
Or unaware of one another….
and that felt very wrong….
so I turned to what if and held her in a tender hug and said
“It’s what is’s turn…
and you can and need to learn to share”
and I reminded her I can’t be without her for very long either.
And with that what if took a big relief of a sigh…
and wiped away several tears from her eyes.
“No one but you ever listens to me… who else will see our possibilities?”
I held her this dear one what if
And I reminded her and assured her we are forever tied at the hip.
I wiped a tear from her eyes and reminded her I’m right here not avoiding her but doing things to be able to return to seeing out from the stars…
And I said “lovey one, time with what is will refuel both of us…”
“Oh,” she said…. and then I swallowed hard too…
Because if I had a favorite, it’s with what if I would I turn. 🙂
But growth and wisdom know it’s not healthy to play favorites…
and I am so overdue to devote to what is several moments…
I’m not experienced at spending days with her
I am very intimidated and shy by all that she gets done in moments let alone hours
But off I got to partner for a season with what is
And maybe eventually figure out a way to with both of them share moments in better balance…
Here’s to that journey for all of us…
My heart with yours,
Tre ~